Airez Pura, My Back Brothers

It is a very rare time that our group gather together....and we had that opportunity yesterday late in the afternoon. I managed to see them after my check up in the PHCA.

Our friendship were made strong by time..... Trill Born, Phoenix Rein, Macmac, Garz Shyboy and Me. He he he he. Am the only girl in the group.

We've been friends for 13 years to sum up for the group but..

Trill Born and I we're friends for 24 years... Trill Born my back brother.

Mac my brother, weh....of course since birth..he's the closest brother I have, to me. We work on things none among our siblings care about. Ha ha ha! I have 3 brothers and no sister.

Phoenix Rein, my twinbro because he calls me twinsis, is my friend of 11 years. Trill Born said Rein and I have some similarities that I am still wondering what they are ! hahhaha!

Garz Shyboy became my friend because of Trill Born...we are friends for 12 years. He's the coolest one in the group and the youngest.

Our friendship was made strong by circumstances and challenges...

We encountered so many trials, challenges, problems, crises, even cross fights with the unknowns and we stuck together back to back...with a chant: "walang urungan, walang talikuran, ang umayaw pipitpitin ang ________ !!" Ano man ang pwedeng pitpitin!

We ventured into business together, we didn't care about profit. We gained P300 per person per month....., load for our cellphones! But nobody complained.... simply because we enjoyed working together... and eating and laughing together. Where did we get money for our lives? We made separate jobs and businesses.

We also have quarrels.... mas malala nga mga quarrels nmin. Tahimikan and dudahan afterwards, dahil each of us is capable of breaking mood sets. But quarrels don't last long like most friendships do, and end up making fun of each other's unforgettable pasts!

We had thick and thins and we survived them all. We went through the most difficult situations in life and we stuck together. Heaven knows how our backs bruised for each other. If there is competition in our midst, it is not in power, nor in fame and glory but in pockets... we compete to earn money, to accumulate so that at the end of our competition, we have money to help one another, money to buy what our families need and money for our hilig....kumain together! Even in competition, we support each other's business.....just like yesterday.

We have one goal in mind. One wish in life. One God we're calling. One faith in our hearts.

Now they have their own families..... married na sila... the bond stays, and their wives our allies.

Why I'm the only girl here? Ewan! Di ko alam. Many women tried to be with us, but they didn't stay long...bawal kasi ang chuchal sa group, bawal ang mag pa epek, mag pa cute at magpanggap....like most groups we have rules, and the toughest rule is respect and loyalty.

Our friendship was made strong by us.

Yeah, we treat each others as brothers and we are brothers beyond thick blood!!

One motto: " Ang papatay sau, papatayin ko! " parang totoo! hahahahaha!

We have other close friends also, who stood with us in some time or another, like brothers.And we are thankful to them.

" There are friends that stick closer than a brother."- the proverb

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When God Sent A " Kalabasa"

I missed the praising part in the church.... I sat at the back.

Comparison between Samson and Jonah was the topic on the pulpit. It was an interactive one. Who's life is better? Everybody will be asked, I thought...and I tried to recall the stories of those two different persons in the Bible, while my cellphone was beeping...it's Pau, nagging on me!

In between beeps, I managed to give an opinion.... I chose Samson! While I should have chosen Jonah! I can relate more with Jonah, but what happened to me...I don't know. hahaha! But I enjoyed the exchanges of opinions between the members of the church. I laughed for every statement thrown out to me....I missed this laughing.

Jonah won! hahahaha!

As if was seeing a mirror : Jonah was good in his life but failed in his mission. He ran away because he wants to take revenge to the race who killed his people, by not telling them how God wants to love and forgive them for doing so. But at the end, Jonah obeyed not out of his heart but out of duty as a prophet. And God spared Niniveh but Jonah was left angry. God sent Jonah a gourd with giant leaves to protect him from the sun, but when the night came, He sent a worm to devour the plant..to make Jonah understand God's heart. But still Jonah was angry.

I didn't fail my life.... but I was taken out of my life. I didn't fail in my mission, but I was taken out of it. And I don't understand why. I know I don't have the right to ask why...just like Jonah. (A lot of people are praying for me...but it seems there is no answer to their prayers, even to mine.)

And I was angry and down. Angry because I didn't pay much attention to myself before and angry because I lost everything now . Down, all my plans were ruined. My dream was gone. And I am stocked in the house like a patient..... Uuuu..... I am a patient! hahaha! But I don't like it! I don't like any of this thing happening.

Till God sent a cover upon my head.... but I only realized that this morning. And my mind razed to who that was? or what was it? And I found out who and what is that "kalabasa".

Why should I be angry? Is not God the God who works and the God who rests? .... I am resting. And this is a sabbatical rest.. Aha!

Oh, I don't have the right to be angry.

Why should I be down and out? Is not God the God of grace and mercy? Is He not the God who created joy and pleasure? ...... I was just given the time to heal all my wounds and find happiness which I was praying for, with the bonus of enjoyment.

I am so glad the Lord remained quiet and didn't make "sabay" to my temperaments, or else I would have been like Jonah, shaken by the storm inside the ship, till he was thrown to the sea and the sea became calm. Yeah, God has shaken me out from my busy days and works.....forcefully till I had no choice but to rest. Still I don't know what His reason might be. But am glad He sent a gourd to make me sit down and think under the heat of the "sun" of my life.

My mom said, "find peace in your situation".... and I did, just now.

Bernard is part of the gourd God sent me. This sweet one makes my rest a memorable one. He is like an ice on my head and a sugar to my coffee. He teaches me to be cool and to choose between ignoring and minding. Between simplicity and complexity. Something a bit hard for me to learn.


Signing off....